So here I am up in Hamilton, in the Waikato.
It’s orientation week at the university so I drove the 7 hours yesterday.
Today I’m feeling really overwhelmed. There is just so much information to take in. I’m doubting my capabilities. There’s also a lot of people so I’m feeling very anxious.
This morning it was really hard to get out of bed. I still feel the blanket of depression and my internal monologue is very unkind. I just had to force one foot forward. To make matters worse, when I got to the uni, I couldn’t find parking so I had to turn around, go back to my motel and then call a taxi. There literally weren’t any spots and I drove miles away. Having my car accessible is a big help to me with my anxiety, so I felt totally out of my comfort zone. After the long day I had to wait for a taxi back.
I’m filled with so much doubt and feeling really overwhelmed. I hope it gets easier as the week goes on.