This is me….
I need this cocktail to get through the days and nights. And even then, I can still feel miserable, not sleep well and feel panicky.
In my picture I look relatively normal. Who would know before this was taken I was feeling so bad, I had to drag myself out of bed to get some fresh air and sun because I’ve pretty much spent the last couple of days in bed. And even I know that sun and fresh air are supposed to help.
I also had one of those bloody ‘parcel to collect’ cards. Meaning I had to deviate from the usual school run, find a park and go into the post shop. I did consider getting S to do it on Saturday, but I already rely on him enough.
The meds cost NZ$50 a time and I’m too broke right now, so I had to ask if I could delay payment until next week. I go in there enough so they know me, but still, that made me feel like shit.
My car is running low on fuel and my rego is still overdue.
Can you tell by looking at me that I am such a fuck up?