I’ve cancelled my therapy appointments and my interview today because I literally just can’t face dealing with anybody or putting on a fake facade any longer.
S asked me to pick up the kids this morning and take them to school which I diligently did because I want to be able to be there for my kids when I can.
But for me there was nothing that I feel I can accomplish in this state certainly when It comes to interviewing.
So now I return from dropping off the kids and I’m just lying in bed hoping to fall asleep soon.
The wine was good last night it did lead me into a good sleep although my neighbours wanted to me to hear their arrival at 2 AM by blasting music and shouting at each other.
I feel short of breath because I feel so anxious and I feel like I’m bordering a panic attack but there doesn’t seem to be any clear reason for this.
I’m just so very tired.