I reached out to the crisis team of mental health and saw a psychiatrist yesterday. I had reached rock bottom. Mixing zopiclone and alcohol – will never do that again! I was just so desperate to sleep, but ended with hallucinations and horrific flashbacks.
The psychiatrist added olanzapine to my medication which is good because I know that’s worked for me before.
I’m also in respite care. So a home that’s got 24/7 care. It’s pretty grim and smelly but at least I feel safe, which is the main thing.
I managed to fall on my arm and have lost feeling in two fingers and my hand. It’s also excruciatingly painful in my arm. But strangely it’s not broken, so they’ve told me it’s nerve damage and will take about 6 weeks to heal
So I’m sore, in pain, mentally I’m just exhausted and drained. Completely lost. I can’t even think straight.
Guess I’ve hit my rock bottom 😞